Sometimes I wish my life had a erase/rewind button

Monday, July 31, 2006

Stolen or lost

Weekend got into some mood for music and failed to find my favorite Andrea Boculli. Ditto with Jagjit Singh's The Latest. I could neve figure out how so many of my favorite CDs go missing. And to think of it, I entertain so few guests at my place if any.
And mind you, its only the good CDs that go missing. No one took that remix I picked up by mistake. Or those CDs you invariable pick up in that buy any 3 for RM 10/- deals in Kuala Lumpur. Why pick bad, because there is only 1 CD worth buying among all those hundreds.
Luckily I did find the other Boculli I have - Romanza, not particularly my favorite compilation, still has a few of the favorite ones. All this episode reminds me, I need a book and CD case. Huge in size and preferrable with combination locks liberally spread over, I want no keys to loose.

Hindi Writers, where are you?

Its tough getting Hindi literature in Pune. At best one can get Premchand or Ghalib (Urdu) in CrossRoads or Bookworld but thats about it. I remember, there was very healthy Hindi publishing till atleast my Allahabad days. There was Dharmayud, Saptahik Hindustan and a whole host of writers writing and being published.
Friends tell me there is still decent publishing happening there, but sadly its not all available outside the local region. Its during musings like this that I feel we are wasting IT potential. It would be so easy to have a say Hindi bookselling portal with all those local publishers selling books online. We can even have a community of users discussing, organising meets etc.
Let me float the idea around. Anybody who wanna join?

50 posts

Finally first 50 posts done, over 500 hits in the past few weeks. It feels kind of good, having picked up something and sticking to it. Usually all my interests get into a quick high and fade equally quickly. I have managed to avoid that here till now and hopefully will continue blogging for a long time.
Meanwhile special thanks to all those who visit often, those who leave comments. Thanks to all who visit.

Call of the wild

Crickets chirping in the night, calling friends
Someone tell them its time to sleep.


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Read somewhere "Examination of the wave or spectrum reveals that each chirp is actually three sound pulses!". Please hand over the grammy.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Exams

Finally took the exam today and have an outside chance of passing too. Not bad eh? Its been ages since I studied for (ok a slight exaggeration should not be held against me) an exam. Tried to study yesterday evening. Got home around 10, had dinner.
Cartoon network, first time in my memory showed new cartoons and ALL of 'em funny.. Something I think has not happened since the summer of 97!. Movie channels again were scintillating. So got to studies only around 11:30.
Normally I read a bit and actually sleep only around 2am, yesterday midnight and I could barely stay awake! 12:30 or so I realized I've been dozing off while sitting with the burning hot laptop in lap (it s P4 and it does burn).
Lets see if I do manage to pass. If I do, I think it'll be certifications ahead for me all August.
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Update: Ah, just realized how did a channel change its spots. It turned out to be a different animal all togather. Pogo is now my fav channel!

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Spam Art

Sometimes I wonder if all those whacko humor novels were not whacko enough. Reality catches up with them all the time.
There is this gentleman who got an idea about creating art from spam.
From the article- "Now he's working on a software agent that can "write" experimental graphical novels based on a melange of text culled from thousands of like-minded blogs across the Net. When finished, the agent, called Blogbot, ... extracts meaning from the text..."
I wish the agent were called blogMonkeys. That ways we could actually have a million monkeys one day writing a Hemlet. Priceless!

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Not this now!

Why can't games stay plain old fashioned?*Sigh!*. Now kids will play monopoly using credit cards. Whats the fun in playing if the banker can't steal money from bank, friends sneakily pass notes to help friends?
We are robbing the kids of all the pleasures of childhood. They can't play unsupervised because apparently I didnt survive playing unsupervised. They can't eat food not sanitized in some lab, because well I'm lying in hospital all the time.
WTF!

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Hungry Kya?

Came across this interesting item about this gentleman with voracious appetite who terrrorized unlimited food offering hoteliers, and in perfectly legal sorts of way.
The amusing part was that some college students used him to get revenge on some place that bugged em off good.

Updates

Well A seems to be getting to Australia this weekend, and I may follow by next month. Somehow a long term onsite doesnt appeal to me much. arnd 3 months is best, enough time to see the place, experience the culture and then back to home base.

Monday, July 24, 2006

OMG

Nokia N93 review And to think that my first digital camera, the kind you buy a big hip pouch to keep the camera in, was also 3ish megapixels! And it didnt have all this gizmo lens and zoom shoom.

Monday Blues

It is an unwritten rule that if I get out without wearing a raincoat, it rains. Just the other day I had it with me- not wearing-, and there was a sudden downpour, I quickly parked the bike, got the stuff on and it stopped raining as suddenly.
Well professional hazards of being the rain God.
Today, again it was sunny when I got to the bike, so I keep the raincoat in the storage. By the time I come out of the basement parking, it was all overcast, no hint of sun. However, I continued, being in no mood to stop and wear the raincoat.
It didn’t rain, throughout the whole 20 min drive. Which goes on to prove that even the clouds don't wanna play on a Monday morning.

Friday, July 21, 2006

Improvement Continues

Well my own template lasted a few minutes. Point to note is that it so moved LaChat that she got on yahoo to ask me what am I smoking and could I please destroy the stock. Point taken, the 3 pane template was way too cluttered esp as implemented.
Well I got on net again and did I tell you that blogspot is now directly accessible, yippy, found few brilliant designs and took one.
Thanks to all those folks who put out free codes, I just customized one and was fed up, here are people who do the whole thing and share it for free.
Special thanks to
Cristina Calabrese aka Pannasmontata of http://www.pannasmontata-templates.net for this template.

New Improved Haze

Whewh! Finally managed to get a new template. Took a very basic template and customized it for blogspot. Let me know in case you have any suggestions for look and feel.
Site doesnt work too well in 800*600 mode; well HTML was never my forte, but I'll try and fix that too.

What was He thinking?

Dear Lord,
You made the tiger cause it looks so swell,
and deer to give 'em food
You made green grassy plains for rabbits to frolick
and wolves to keep rabbits in check,
By why in this world, did You have to make mosquitoes?

Thursday, July 20, 2006

The Bird that got away

I miss my Enfield. Just the perfect weather these days to hit the roads. With the rains somewhat slackening and the hills all green, this is the time to get to one of those biking roads around Pune.
I remember year before last, when I'd drive down to Sinhgarh very early in morning riding in the cold weather dressed in Jeans and a simple T. Then lie around in grass on the hill top, reading books and watching the Sun rise, spreading warmth, morning walkers starting to come up. Then have tea and Onion Bhaaji at those stalls in the fort, sometimes Pitala bhakri too.
In fact read most of Papillon, at Sinhgrah like that.
Those were the days *sigh*.

Finally some good news

Apparently GOI has accepted that there was a goof up and is being rectified. Hopefully blogs will soon be available without mucking with URLs.
One good thing is that this fiasco brought blogs to Indian mainstream. I hope blog traffic increases.

Lunch time fun

If the going gets boring, get some Bong and a Marathi guy togather and start discussing Tendulkar Vs Ganguly. Oh boy, doesn't get much better :)

Realization

Finally after years of passing out of college, I found out the secret to studying well. Upto now, frankly studies were a chore- still are, and other than literature books, I studied with a view to knowing facts or as a tool.
As it turns out, I need to clear some certification soon, and so registered for the same. The certification is to be held tommorow. better than usual form, I started preparing 2 days in advance and boy at over 1000 pages of material, it was a tough going.
I can manage to read at arnd 700+ words a min, so 2 days and I might have got through, for a change I decided I want to understand the rationale behind the process, its logic and utility etc. after 5 hours I realized, I have a lot more to do.
So here I am certification postponed by a week, learning something, 6 years after end of college!
Atleast I learnt.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Frustated? A Bit Of Humor

Sometimes computers do things you don't want done or don't do things, you want done. There is this piece on Error Msgs
TheRegister again at it. My favorites are the Haiku ones:

The code is willing, It considered your request But the chips were weak.
To have no errors Would be life without meaning No struggle, no joy ...and :
These three are certain: Death, taxes, and site not found. You, victim of one.

Well read the rest yourself.

Resistance is Useless

Fished out my copy of Hitch Hiker's Guide to Galaxy the other day and start on the laugh riot again. The fun started even before I started on the book, the introduction itself setting the tone.
Adams recounts how he once while being drunk meets a succession of deaf and dumbs, his sanity saved only by discovering a hotel hosted a deaf and dumb convention! and then things get better.
What I wanted to mention was the Cybernatics corporation. while reading of the emotional computers and doors, i was struck by how Microsoft Office Help wizard almost behaves like one. Knowning the popularity of the book, is it possible that one of the original designers decided a tribute at user and Microsoft expense?

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Dashing Dreams

Of all the places, Europe is what I want to travel around. A backpacking trip through Italy, sights of France and Austria and history tourism in Greece is what I'd love to do.
Normally we software guys to manage to travel around and so do I, but it seems Europe is out of bounds for me. if some project from there comes, I am typically busy in some other messy project. Looks like I better come to terms with the fact, will never work there, and backpacking through those many countries can only happen if I am working in one and doing weekend travelling :(.

Easiest Way

Apparently Indian Government has banned blogspot.com. Talk about taking the easy way out.
We do not arrest the known sympathisers within India for reasons of electoral politics.
We do not curb the illegal money channels.
We do not prosecute the organisations we blame for the attacks.
We do block a website used by few criminals and millions of innocent user because frankly its the softest option.
And then we complaint that the world is not being fair to us.

Monday, July 17, 2006

Easy way

I remember reading a story in Chandamama (1 of the better children story book) in my childhood. The story went something like this:
There was a kingdom with a king and a Kotwal (security chief). As it happened some dacoit gangs started making merry in the capital after dark. So the security chief proclaimed - let there be no life after dark, citizens will stay indoor for their safety.
The king heard this. This was a wise king. He called for the Kotwal and told him gently -My dear man, it is the right of the CITIZENS to roam in streets after dark.
The Kotwal got the hint; he withdrew the proclamation and arranged for the dacoits to be hunted out.

Its a story that made its impression on me. That is how a mature, caring power should behave; alas I have realized that we as a people behave more like Kotwal rather than the king.
So some joints got robbed, some people got drunk in restaurants and made nuisance and so the police now close down all restaurants by 11. (Some people like me, at times get off work by that hour. so the only choice is to leave work before, eat and come back to work and stay till like 1 but that is digressing).

Recently the apartment complex I live had its society formed. I see the same bias here. Rules say - no bachelor can be given house on rent. I believe the underlying assumption is that bachelors will lead 'immoral life' somehow, have boisterous late night parties. I agree many do that, but then if you look closely it’s typically those fresh out of college, full on hostel spirit and exuberance of youth. Guys like me, working from morning to night or whose idea of fun is to generally curl up with a good book, get short changed. What about couples with kids? I have it on first hand experience that a gang of kids playing in park can wake up a sound sleeper on 11th floor. Should all kids be banned?
Do couple do not have noisy parties? Excuse me I just lived through football world cup. I didn’t need TV to know when something exciting happened.
Similar rule says no foreigner can be given flat on rent. Why? Go figure. Maybe it is bad to know about different cultures?

The point of the post is that we do not ban the behaviour that causes problem; we ban the most vulnerable group. So police instead of dealing with late night hooligans will close down life after some cutoff time. Societies instead of confronting nuisance will ban what they can easily ban. The reason I took the society example is because it’s not some Bureaucracy but we a resident group ourselves who have this thinking. Bureaucracy can get away with it, because we as a people think exactly the same way.

Conversations with the Abbot

Abbot:Child, u had a drain clog, why?
Monk: Master, I cleaned the water filter.
A: Hola! where did u connect this water filter to?
M: Municipal water supply Master. Comes via the tank we built on top.
A: Hmmm, you know, you should be cleaning it often.
M: I tried master, I tried
A: And why did you not succeed?
M: Master, You need the hands of a child, the strength of 2 oxen, dexterity of an eagle in order to open and clean the bottle. Not to mention some custom size screw driver.
A: We should have the skills of their service guys
M: Master, we are mere philosophers searching for truth, God and everything, while those are Water Filter Technicians
A: You mean the entry barriers are low for us?
M: Master, you know so much more. I'll say these guys find a few folks and design the product accordingly.
A: But their manual must be mentioning what do to to clean?
M: Master, what the manual reveals is substantial, what it does not, is vital.
A: So its all cleaned now?
M: Yes master, its sparkling clean but now doesnt power on.
A: Maybe shd we start making water filters?
M: Master what do I know, I'm a just monkie.

Friday, July 14, 2006

Where have all the comments gone?

I wish more visitors will leave comments and their names behind. Its good to know what the reader feels about my thoughts and encouraging to know that some of them decide to spend time and effort giving feedback.
So please leave some comments once a while. It'll keep me enthused about this whole blogging thing.

Weekend is here

Weekends end up being too busy. Got to get the bike repaired, cleanup the cottage, shop for food, all in all enough work to make me reflect on the futility of it all and sleep the weekend away.
Only thing is that I want a change from routine.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Zidane Zidane

This is great fun! and probably true.
Well I'll leave it to the boffins of the Rag to say it in their own words.
http://www.theregister.co.uk/2006/07/13/zidane_headbutt_outrage/

Just finished reading India Unbound

I normally buy and read only fiction. It so happened that I was at FC Road, waiting for someone, and as is my wont, get into Book World. I was almost without cash so buying that Wodehouse collection was out of question. Saw this affordable copy of India Unbound by Gurcharan Das. I have read his column in Sunday TOI but really, what I read keenly in that now a days tabloid is cartoons, Jug Suraiya and Bachi Karkaria. so I did not really know if I'll find this much good.
The book turns out to be surprizingly interesting. Author has made a good case of highlighting the wrong policies followed by India and the notions and people behind it. its a good mix of facts, fancies and insights into an important period of India and is a good read for those into this kind of reading.
I hope there will be another work like this, which will highlight how we may still loose the plot. There are plenty of roadblocks ahead and a pity that while we realized that our policies were wrong and keep so many so poor all this time, we still are unable to shake off the burden of stale thoughts.
On other note, there was this beautifully bound complete collection of Calvin and Hobbes and at over 6000. Grrrr

Its a depression

Life, ever since the market crash - I refuse to call it a correction- has been boring. CNBC/blogs are all staid now, no action, no wild speculations, no coffee machine discussions. What fun is that.
To confess, while tons of my wealth was getting eroded it was still fun. I mean there is something exciting about coming to work in morning, staring screen all day, finding 10% of your net worth eroded each day for many days. It helps that there wasn't much wealth to get eroded to begin with and I don't depend on stocks for the daily bread, or the butter for that matter.
Then it all stablized and suddently I realize that there is no exciting movements of market, lots of those good looking experts gone from the telly, heck even moneycontrol board is all quite.
Its a sad sad world Hobbes where there is no wild SEnseX.

Nature of the beast

I had thought of this being a random musings blog. Looking at my past few entries, it seem to be taking a distinct political/social bias, and I'm wondering if thats a good thing.
Ideally I'd love to write stories, poems, put a few macro shots here. But then one come to terms with one's talents and let go of many a desire. Its almost an existentialist dilemma; grappling with the thought of splitting up the blog into separate blogs. Its hard enough feeding words to a single blog so where would multiple blogs lead?
Any comments as to what to do?

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Salaam Bombay

Another attack on Mumbai yesterday. True to its spirit, the city rebounds within hours. There is something about the undying spirit of India that is so visible here - "Hasti mit-ti nahin hamari".
What I would like to see it that for once, our soft state finds the perpetuators and punish them. Punish as in sentence them if they can be arrested, or destroy them and their properties if they are outside India. The only way to fight this monster is to hack it down everytime it raises its head. India is often an easy target I think because its so easy to escape the law. When we have been able to pinpoint, the targets are off to some not so friendly country and short of making noises and passing lists, nothing happens. Why not chase em and take em out whereever they hide? If we have enough information to list names and addresses, heck punish em too, why wait for extradition that you know will never happen?
Lets for one show these murderer that they will meet a gruesome fate at the hands of our law.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

DTH Dreams Dashed

INSAT 4C was destroyed and with it my dreams of competition in DTH space. I do have DishTV at home, but was hoping that with more players things will become better.
DishTV has been a mixed experience. Picture quality is decent when I get some. Had some trouble a few months back. Spent 2 months chasing them, offering prayers, threats, bribes but Zee has a policy of not replying or else replying with standard queries. So my mail will go like, Hi, my connection.. bought on ... VC number ...., S# .... is not working, look at mail trail for details.
Most of my queries didnt get a reply at all and when I would, the reply would be like - thanks for writing to us. Please reply with your VC # .... S#..... asking me precisely all those details my immediate mail will have. Gaaah!#@#$%^&
Finally one day I decided enough waiting for these guys to be honest wage earners, fiddled with antenna and set myself and it started working. But I believe their later modern and cheaper connections (because Star is launching) have better technologies.
For me, its been a waste of money on DishTV. A hint of cloud in sky and most channels don't come. The software is user unfriendly, channel switch too slow. On good side, picture quality on a bright sunny day, with dish freshly adjusted is pretty good. However if you are planning to get a DTH connection, I suggest wait till our next satellite is up and you have more players to choose from.

Monday, July 10, 2006

Movie Weekend

The week turned out pretty good. While friends complaint that I hardly ever go to movies (2 movies in theatres in 4 years), TV can sometimes find me catching one.
This sat, I tuned into Hum Tum, a movie I had earlier liked on video so watched it again. 1 good thing about the movie, apart from a somewhat different treatment is that the songs don't hurt as much. Unlike say Hera Pheri - brilliant movie where songs suddently come up and sock you firmly on the jaw, making you think what the hell was that director smoking, please never ever give me that, the songs in this movie don't really inhibit the flow of the movie.
Sun, again I could not sleep so thought of tuning into Football world cup. Discovered 'Suraj Ka Saatwan Ghoda' coming on Zee Classic. Eminently enjoyable flick. Its story telling in a pretty neat way and the depiction of a small town, old world Indian town is realistic enough. Again, 2 songs did manage to somehow to fall into the story, still at 2 only and atleast one of them, appropiate and germane to the story, it was a well made movie.
Songs for me, indicate the coward nature of our story tellers. They all claim to be experimenting, thinking of original ideas, but 99% simply fall to the idiocy of throwing in a few songs because we Indians apparently can't go in life without breaking into tunes at the drop of the hat. To me, a director who cannot have the courage not to have a song in the movie, will not have the courage to be original either. Period.

Power of blogging Part Deux

The other day my post mentioned that blogging seem to make things happen. It happened again. I blogged about the potholed road and the following day while going home, I found most of em filled. Filled with clay, so probably there is a scope for another blog on the same, but some, may God make him happy, soul filled most the the potholes on the Wakad to TB hospital stretch.
Way to go

Friday, July 07, 2006

Amazing Iceland

Watched this movie yesterday set in Iceland. No idea about the movie, it was I think in French, talking about some virus in birds thats jumped to humans and these chums are searching for which gang of birds.
The scenary was amazing. Inhospitable for most part, it was mostly glaciers and mountains, all very beautiful. Living in India, with all the crowds, sometimes silence becomes so dear. I hope I get to visit the country someday.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Potholes, Purpose, Ponderings

Ah another of those firefighting days and am totally pooped by now. Will go home and maybe curl up with Calvin & Hobbes. Weather already is instigating ideas of my being a rain God, and true to form, it has rained heavily in the evening, so the roads will be mucky and driving a chore.
There is this old Indian thought of whatever happens has some purpose. The day before, while biking towards Aundh in late evening, just before CQAE I was wondering what use could these insane, forcing you to stand still in rains, traffic jams could have in life? Suddenly realized that the car ahead will stop, I pumped the brakes. While swerving to avoid any possible bump to the car, realized I'd have fallen into that, deep enought to dent the floor of my poor Activa severely, pothole in this newly repair road, had I not braked.

Wise men- or women- of yore were indeed wise. Even traffic jams have a purpose.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Power of blogging

It really does work. The other day Ab. was agonizing over an Australian trip that will make him miss the football matches. Well we decided to test a theory, he made a blog entry proclaiming to the world that he is going http://footballingguy.livejournal.com/4289.html to Australia soon. Voila it gets postponed-promptly on queue.
Now I just blogged about it raining outside and me cooped in with no work. I moment I click publish, I get a call and work pours in.
Matrix really exists and so does Ludlum's ideas.
And I get a deja-vu that I've published this post earlier

Rainy Days

As usual, its been raining since morning and here I am cooped in office with no real work to do. Such a shame!
I could have been back home, having tea and reading Calvin & Hobbes.
Heck even watching TV would have been better.

About HIM

A chat with LaChat got into interesting groove. I'll leave the gist of that out, esp since she is touchy about Sai Ram as she puts it. I'll write about what troubles me in whats generally called as Hindu faith.
While I would say I'm a Hindu and quite proud of it, some of my views may distress the more common practisioners. For one, I don't like temples. Not as in the structures, but rather what they have become. Most temples invariably are dirty. Reason mostly being the plastics of incense sticks, rotting flowers, edibles offfered to deity etc. Someone remarked that while some of the offerings are same as in Gurudwaras, the latter are usually clean because of sewa done by the worshippers. Maybe thats it, Hinduism being more personal, does not foster the same comunal civic feelings.
Then there are those pujaris. Most temples I find too commercialised where often, the richer your offerring, the nearer to deity you get. I find that reprehensible.
For me, Hinduism is about our glorious philosophies. If you look at the discussions in our ancient discourses, you will realize that Hindu thought ( and its also the Indian thought of that time) is about following the right way of life. Wealth and connections are not counted in goods, its the thinking that determines greatness. There is plenty of debate and debate shows tolerance.
I find the same qualities missing in most of modern Indians, though we all pay lip service to the same.
Then there is that talk about idols being symbols of Gods, representations so that we weak of mind, find it easier to concentrate. What I however see is that for most of us, its the idols which have become God. I feel we worship that stone/clay statue as God, not as representation of God. So whats supposed to be the way to concentrate, becomes the object of concentration. That would neccessorily limit the spiritual God, because we don't try to reach that level where the easy way is not needed.
So the net result is that people find me less of Hindu, while I find them primitive.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Hot Blogging Topics

The reason I got so late in entering the blogging world was my insistance on discovering the hot blogging topics that when covered will make my site a very popular site.
One matures with age, so I took the plunge scribbling whatever comes to my mind. And yes, it does not really matter if I get 100 hits a day, or 2, after all its only visions in a purple haze that I am recording :).
I still haven't figured out if this blog should be limited to random musings, or the political views or what. Anyways I don't have enough content to really think about having separate blogs.
I do welcome suggestions from the few folks who do manage to land on one of my pages. If you have ideas as to what will make you come back, let me know.

I wanna be...

A professional protestor! One of these days, I want to be a part of some organisation that will allow me to protest Cancun WTO or Casablanca Round of some development or Swiss Alps meeting on poor countries or Ipanema gathering of good folks, kind of meetings.
I look for airfare/stay and a small stipend to buy beer/food for me and maybe a couple of buddies.
Let me know if any of these world NGOs are recruiting.

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2:00 and the world stays boring
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Zero Sum Game

In a post earlier I observed a tendency of Indians viewing Life as a zero sum game. So in order for me to get something, someone other needs to be deprived of it. Its a sweeping statement so I'll try and explain why I feel so.
Its the small things in life that often explain the most. Take the case of our roads. I first really thought of this on a trip to Delhi. Most of the vehicles I thought, were not so interested in reaching destination as early as in preventing others from getting ahead of self. So a driver will block your way even if you are faster and in reality would not really make a difference to its destination reaching time.
Its an attitude that comes from long training. The license/permit raj ( earlier society must be suffering from the same malaise but I'll quote what I have seen ) ensured that everything is rationed and so in order for me to get something, I have to 'fix' someone else's claim. And license/permit raj was also a result of certain mentality developed over time.
You see it everywhere. Notice a railway signal. People have to stop because the way is barred. Now if every one were to come in a line, once the gates open, vehicles will zip past. so lets say the 100th car in the line will be able to cross the gate after 2 minutes of its opening. What happens is when the gate is closed, 'both sides of the gate', vehicles will move in on all lanes. once the gates open you realize that traffic has no place to move because you have 2 set of armies in a face off position. so the bright soul in the wrong lane in front, who would have had to wait 2 minutes now causes a traffic jam and will spend 30 minutes in crossing the resulting pile up. and next crossing, (s)he will repeat the same idiocy.
This is just an example. you'll see on on traffic stops, parking everywhere. We not move into the wrong lane so that we can cross faster, we move in wrong lane so that the rest of the traffic is behind us (even though it actually increases my total journey time, mind you because of this tendency of people being in the wrong lane, an alert driver, on the green signal has to be slower than possible because 95% of the times, there will be some moron blocking the right of way).
Attitudes takes generations to change, but I hope lot more Indians living abroad for long periods and returning will slowly start changing. It may not happen in my lifetime though.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Dreams: Dream on

An interesting article about dreams http://www.theregister.co.uk/2006/05/14/the_odd_body_dreams/
From the article -"What would happen if I was prevented from dreaming?"
" ...dream deprivation produces anxiety, irritability, an inability to concentrate, paranoia, a ravenous appetite, depression, and even suicidal thoughts"
The researchers here were waking up folks just as they would start dreaming (how do they know if dream has started? well read the article dude).
Sweetheart, if someone keeps waking me up everytime I get into a sleep, I WILL get murderous! and these guys thinking a certain crankiness in someone they keep waking every 15 minutes is because they were stopped from dreaming?
Helloooooo! brains there?

Wet Wet World

Pune sometimes makes me feal like the rain god. It's always raining. I might have done better to get a water scooter rather than the scooter scooter.
Firaq said "Hawain woh nahin chaltein, woh barsaatein nahin hotien". Trust a fellow Allahabadi to put the finger on the pulse. Indeed, while it may rain, and rain like a politician gathering money, here; the romance of those great rains of childhood is missing.
I remember those early day rains. It used to rain heavily in Allahabad. A couple of hours of downpour and the kitchen garden would submerge. There was the courtyard that was even lower lying and water will be more than a couple of feet deep. We would float a discarded jeep tyre and float in it. Or put out paper boats that would quickly sink under the weight of raindrop but it was fun none the less.
Frogs et all will croak, insects especially ants invade all dry areas, electricity cut off but who'd mind? Rains after those hellish summers were indeed manna from heaven. We'll run out, get wet and dirty, came back in, wash up, have those pakoris often with tea, play games especially when the schools would declare a rainy day.
Those were simple days; life was uncomplicated and almost achingly beautiful.

The 4th wave

The hot topic these days is the impending reservation laws extending it to all education institutes including the super specialty and private once. There is a fair possibility that the same will be extended to private sector. Personally I feel is the typical state preserving state rather than its people which is the guiding force behind this. However I refrain from commenting on the fairness of it all, because well I think I don't really know if cast discrimination really exists at All places (IIT/IIMS) etc to justify its extension to all institutes. Personally I think that specialty institutes like IIT/IIMS are not meant for the masses so it'll be counter productive to extend quotas to these. There are elite institutes meant for people already trained in various disciplines and as such should be open to all who can make it on merit.
The thing is that India never really in its mediaeval and modern history celebrated merit. Meritocracy was more an exception than rule. Cast is the same phenomena. its based on birth. And these holier than thou political parties are no exception. Look at how dynasties are preserved and celebrated in nearly all parties.
Anyways, trying not to digress I come back to my original thoughts. The abdication of state of its duty to citizens is also apparent in extending quota to private institutes. Most folks will admit that quotas should be at primary level. And I'll say government primary schools. but the fact remain that these seem to be so moribund that parents would rather not send their kids to these. Hence the clamour for quota in private schools, which are arguably better. If there is indeed discrimination based on caste, then lets open good schools which primarily cater to lower caste students. They should also admit enough upper caste students so that the 2 can mingle and develop a healthy respect for each other. These should also be neccessorily residential, and give decent scholarships to students. I believe West Bengal has proposed some such model, and I think that that is the step in right way. The problem is a lack of oppurtunity and that is what should be treated.
My fear is that quota will bring government control in a disguised way to private schools and that is the real danger. Our ruling classes have proved such self servient that they will make private school seats an avenue of dole. Remember the license/quota raj? It might make a comeback in schools! Someone has said the people get what they deserve; I think I notice this trait in Indians. For us, life is always a zero sum game. In order to gain, my neighbour must loose.
There is however a silver lining in my views to all this. When Mandal was brought in, I was in senior schools and like most of my other classmates was dismayed. I was in Allahabad and there the dream of most students was to be a government employee. I did not want that. And I could see that now many of us, will stop looking to government and go into private sector, which is where money is. And in many ways money is power.
History proved me right, and that is why I believe politicians now want quota in private sector. No one talks about employment generation accelerated which will produce more jobs and by extension, all sections will get a job. If I have heard our politicians correctly 60% of Indians are 'backward' casts (Including scheduled). so I find it self evident that lets say if 90% of Indians are employed, assuming that all backward casts get employed only after all forward casts get employed because of discrimination, even that only 10% of backward casts will be unemployed. Than the state can do something for them. Alas no one talks about this, because our mentality is such. If God were to come and give us a boon, it seems we will instead of asking for 2 cows, ask that my neighbour's cow dies.
So Mandal ended up the clamour for government jobs for most students, Mandal 2 will also benefit in a round about way. Look at Delhi university admissions. Apparently tons of students this year got 90%+ in 12th. So for the top colleges, BCOM, Eco (hons) etc have cut offs of 97%! Many bright students unable to get into top colleges are planning to go abroad. Now lets face it, our higher education is mostly crap, churning out graduates unfit for most work non-clerical. so if more Indians do go abroad and study in good colleges there, it can only benefit.
I also think that most countries don't really know about India. So this 4th wave, Indians going abroad for studies will bring Indian culture closer to many countries of the world. and I mean many countries, not just US/UK/Australia, because I suspect so many students will now routinely go out that many countries will start targeting them. It also gives India leverage with those countries.
This 4th Wave, of Indian students, many of whom will end up world citizens, will raise India's mind share across the world. Besides these bright souls will end up raising the awareness of folks back home about the rest of the world. Once enough students start going abroad, there will be information/infrastructure available to all (irrespective of caste) who can make it to a top university. If I have it in me to go to Harvard/MIT/IIT, why would I settle for anything less. What hampers is the lack of training and information, and that would be taken care of by the pioneers. Instead of competing for seats in the top 50 colleges of India, our students will compete with the world for world's top 500 and get there.
It time Indians come to fact that the rest of the world is not some morally corrupt sink pit of humanity but is a vibrant mass of diverse culture as good as any other and in many ways much more progressive.
It’s my hope that this mass emigration, will end up making a global country once again.
Amen